So it turns out I might not be going to another catholic school after all. I’m going to be seeing if i can (somehow) get into Interlochen Boarding School. It’s an art school so I’m really hoping I can get in even though it’s extremely late. But, even if it is too late, I plan to try again next year. My only regret if I get in is leaving my friend behind. She wants to try to get in for creative writing, but her mother’s very clingy and would never let her go. Oh, and I’d definitely miss my pet rat.

I’m not too sure what the point of keeping this account is anymore, but I do post sometimes don’t I? So I graduated (big surprise) and I’m going to another catholic school now. (blech) Anyway, I found somewhere to put my pictures. here

Oh, and by the way, bible school was fun.

I just had to put this out there. My friends are helping out with vacation bible school. All they do is escort the little kids to their classrooms and then goof around in the school for a couple hours. I’m going just to hang out with my friends (a few of whom i won’t see much anymore because we’re going to different high schools). So, a week ago I was in the car with my friend and my mom goes “Are you going to bible school?” and I go “I don’t know, maybe.” My mom bugged out. “You don’t even believe in God, and you’re going to bible school?!” (btw, she never mentions that I don’t believe in “the almighty father”) Ever since, she keeps asking “If you’re going to bible school, can you start going to church again and receiving communion?” I swear, she’ll never quit.  

Okay, so I have some pretty good pictures and my mom’s begging me to find a way to “get them out there.” Don’t know where. Help? 

Hey people. I know i haven’t been writing, like, at all. Graduation’s coming up. I’ve been busy. More and more of my friends are getting confirmed. (sniffle) Anywho. You know what sucks about being atheist AND bi? You have to “come out” twice. I sent an email to my friend telling her I’m bi (please don’t ask. email was just easier.) I got a response but unfortunately my mom saw it before I did. Ugh. The best part was, she didn’t believe me. She thought I was just trying to be different. Who does that?! (never mind, i know people who actually do stuff like that just to get attention.) Yeah, so now my mom’s convinced that five years from now I’ll be straight and be going back to church (and probably eating meat too.) Blech. Oh and by the way, my friend was completely fine with it. 

I know it’s been a while, my dearies. So. We’ve been going over confirmation in religion class. (the people from all the three different schools that were combined are getting confirmed at different times. kids from the one school already got confirmed.) So we’re reading from these little confirmation workbook thingies. We have to answer questions at the end of each section. I always hate answering the third one because it’s usually something along the lines of, “What can you do to improve your relationship with God?” and such. But today one sentence caught my eye. “You need to have the faith to know that God loves you even though you are unworthy.” I’m not sure why but this just cracked me up. And then we were reading from the bible. We were reading about Cain and Abel but i glanced over at Adam and Eve. What I just don’t get is that whole story. Mostly the part about how they realize they’re naked. I mean, come on! All that hype and al they get is enough knowledge to realize they’re naked. It’s like whoever wrote the bible just wasn’t feeling very creative that day or something.   

Gah! I was riding home on the bus when I heard the kids behind me start talking about how the kids from my school need to stop being so snobby and get over the fact that our school closed. There’s a dance in our old parish center on Friday and they were pissed ’cause, “It’s not even a school! Why are they having a dance?!” Ugh. They need to get over themselves. We fucking miss our school, ok? And of course i always have to go through stages. Pissed. Depressed. Mopey. Pissed again (only worse) Right now, I’m listening to the heaviest songs I have in my itunes library. 

So, I was skimming through some random stuff and I got to thinking about having a conscience. A lot of atheists will tell you they have a conscience. Sorry to say this, but you kinda don’t. Religion class says that your conscience is god in your head telling you right from wrong. I’m rather happy to say that i don’t have a conscience. What i do have is common sense. I know what’s right and wrong in the eyes of other people and i know what’s right and wrong to me. I think- being gay is fine./ Lust is cool (so long as it doesn’t end up in rape or restraining orders)/ People shouldn’t be able to put other people down just because their “good book” tells them it’s okay./I’m not big on abortion but i do think that women should at least have the choice./ We should be our own people, not who society tells us to be./ Oh yeah, and music and books shouldn’t be fucking banned just because the church thinks they’re “inappropriate”. I could probably make up a page long list of thing i think are okay that the church doesn’t. (but i’m not going to ’cause i’m not that bored)

So Panic at the Disco’s (without the “!”)  new album came out today. Very Beatles-esque. They have certainly changed. But then again, who doesn’t? Just because they changed  their style doesn’t mean their music isn’t good any more. I love the alternative version of  ”Behind The Sea” My favorite line is probably “We’re all too small to talk to God. Yes, we’re all too smart to talk to God.” Seems like Ryan Ross (their songwriter) might be the new John Lennon. 

Ok. I’m starting to feel bad. I just can’t find anything worth ranting about. Suggestions people? Hmm. Well I watched August Rush. It was really good. The plot was obviously far-fetched but it was played out well. And the music was amazing. Did I mention I got an ipod? Well, I did. I’ve always been more of a cd girl, but the bus rides were getting annoying. Everyone else would be sitting there listening to their music while i was just. well, sitting there. And since i’ve always been a music lover, it comes in handy. It goes everywhere with me.  The only problem is, I can only buy songs with a gift card. Yeah. Oh well I kinda like it that way. I have to starve a little before I actually get my music.